Finding new snacks! DAY 6!
Jul 14, 2018
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Te4YRQPraQM

so this morning I decided to switch it
up a little bit and I had Quaker Oats
instant oatmeal apple spice it was a
hundred and thirty calories per pack I
had two flavored with I cannot believe
it's butter zero calorie welcome to day
oh my gosh I can't believe I've made it
to day six what an amazing feeling that
it honestly is to get to a day that I
didn't think I would make it to
especially because I am so quick to
sabotage myself out and jump to my bin
gene and just give up that I never have
succeeded a multiple amount of dates at
one time and so it's such an amazing
feeling and I couldn't say it enough
that you guys are such an inspiration
and help in this journey that I have
become become became doing that I can't
thank you guys enough and it's such an
amazing feeling to think that not too
long from now I will finally be able to
start using my legs and be able to start
doing all those things that I wanted to
do with my family I want to go hiking I
want to go to the zoo and be able to
walk through the zoo and go and do
grocery shopping without having to be in
a in a motor cart and do all the things
that need to be done that I can finally
do my myself I have definitely been
trying so hard to do so much more by
myself and not realize so much hold on
not rely so much on my family to help me
and when I say that it's just you know
hold on Omar hold on it's
so much easier to just say hey you know
I need this or hey I need that but in
reality it's tit last night I got up and
I watched my kids as sippy cups it may
seem like such a small task but in my
life and in my world it's a big task and
I stood there and I was like well my
back's really not hurting me that bad
like it's it's really not bothering me
it's so nice to be able to just get up
and go to the bathroom and come back and
not be panting out of breath and that
was like it was getting really bad like
as soon as I would get out of the
bathroom and I'd come back and sit on
the chair I was just like huffing and
puffing and it would literally take me
at least a minute and a half to two
minutes just to catch my breath from
walking from the chair to the bathroom
and I know that it's only gonna continue
to get better and so I'm so excited to
see where this journey is taking me cuz
I finally feel like I'm gonna be on the
road to getting my life back and to make
it six days is just an incredible
feeling for me
so anyways today we have to go to Costco
again I know Costco is like one of our
favorite stores not really but we use
we're always there I'm gonna look at
some vitamins I need to get some day
vitamins that I'm taking every day just
to help continue to keep my vitamin and
take up and then I need to grab some
odds and ends for the kids and then
after that I think we're probably gonna
be coming home because it's really warm
today and I really don't do good in the
heat and neither do the kids so we're
probably gonna cut it short but anyways
I just want to check in with you guys
and say good morning welcome back to our
community and I will check in soon okay
so I am here and I was looking at the
vitamins
and the one the ones I've seen that I
really am thinking I'm gonna want to get
is it's the fight of fusion women's
dummy vitamins it comes with energy
metabolism and phone support
they're gummy flavored it's this brand
and they're $8.99 I'm still right now so
I think I'm gonna pick those ones up
because I think those are gonna be
probably what is gonna be everything
that I'm meeting right now but I just
want to show you guys the vitamins that
I'm gonna go ahead and rise I wanted to
show you really quick something that I
got I'm really excited to try it before
I go and put it in the car I went ahead
and got these for a snack like if I need
them because it's something great to
just a grab I got some more of my Greek
yogurts I went ahead and I grabbed these
and they are my husband did the
calculation on these they were how much
I mean so for one burger it's 240
calories but I mean honestly for a
dinner you can add still have your bond
and stuff it would be really good so
excited and then I just got some more
sparkling water and then oh one more
thing I got this to put on my yogurt so
I can have it in the morning I am really
excited I'll tell you guys all the
calorie counts and stuff when I get home
I just want to kind of show you cuz I
was really excited when I got it
ok guys so we just got home and I run it
really quick so I didn't get a chance to
tell you when we were at the store for
the granola find us
colors for it so for a half of a cup
it's 210 calories which is not bad if
considering the fact that I mean you can
have it with yogurt you can literally
just have it as a snack you can put it
like in a baggie and just eat it that
way too
so in reality there's so many things
that you can do with it and I love
granola and this comes with like raisins
and almonds just tons of good stuff in
it so I'm really excited what I was able
to find that I've been thinking about it
but every time I go to the store I
completely spaced it but I found it
today at Costco and I was like ham and I
pick it up because it's better to have
it on hand when I want it then not have
it so
anyways my children need to go lay down
for now so I will talk to you guys soon
this is a turkey burger that I got from
Costco the bun is actually an English
muffin and sweet potato fries the entire
dinner cost me five hundred and fifty
calories hey everybody so we are finally
finishing it has been again a very very
long day but it was a good day I
actually really had a good time we went
to Costco into the running that we
needed to get done I showed you guys all
those good things that I picked up today
I'm really excited I was able to find
those things because those are all
things that are gonna help me so much
win you know sometimes when you eat
yogurt sometimes you just need a little
bit of a texture to it because some
sometimes it's just kind of like wow um
and I love granola so and granola is
healthy for you there's nothing wrong
with it at all
and so I was happy to find that and then
just having the beef jerky I need to
find out because it says one ounce is
120 calories so I don't know if that
means one stick I am definitely gonna go
do some googling and I want you guys to
know what I find out but the beef jerky
was 120 for one and I did have one for
snack and I forgot to take a picture of
it
but I had one for snack on the way home
from Costco so I was really hungry and
dinner wasn't gonna be for a while so I
thought I better just go ahead and do it
and eat now before I start getting
really hungry and then other than that
that was pretty much all I had today I
haven't had really much of anything else
other than my my regular meals and then
tonight I am probably probably gonna
have a yogurt with some granola because
that just I'm excited to try it and I've
got plenty of calories to do so
so anyways but yeah other than that
today was really good again it just like
I was telling my husband today when I
we're on our way home I was like you
know it just makes me so angry at myself
sometimes because I just want to do so
much but my body is stopping me right
now and I feel like I'm inside my skin
just screaming like I want to get out
and walk I want to go out and shop and
you know and so it makes me sometimes
mad because I've had so many
opportunities to do it and I let those
things go but then I have to stop and
remind myself like hey you know it's
that was in the past and you are making
movements now and you are changing and I
am I really really am and I told my
husband I said there is never going back
I will never be this way again I am so
uncomfortable and so sad that I have
even allowed myself to be this way for
as long as I have but there is just so
much in life I want to do and I just
want to do them and I was like you know
if I could just make tomorrow be what my
goal is that would be amazing
but of course that's never gonna happen
because weight-loss is never just a
quick simple fix I don't care you can go
on any quick fix diet you can go on you
know all those market diet pill things
and they may work but by the end
can't guarantee almost 50% if not more
and of gaining the weight back because
it's not about the pill
it's about your behavior with the food
and I had somebody ask me last night
what is your what is your insight and
your opinion on weight-loss surgery and
this is my opinion now please do not
think that I'm telling you whoever has
had a surgery that it's wrong because I
am NOT saying that for me the surgery
would never work because for me surgery
is just a tool a step up from starting
to change your life and make things
happen to lose the weight but you still
have to do the job you still have to eat
healthy move change your lifestyle and
you still have to do those things like
the surgery is not gonna do all that for
you so for me I suffer from binge eating
and so I know that no matter what if I'm
not trying to heal and fix all the stuff
that's messy inside that surgery would
just be something that I would have work
around and manipulate and end up
stretching my stomach back out because I
would find a way to be able to still
bitch because I'm not facing my issues
that need to be faced and dealt with so
I am NOT against the weight loss surgery
whatsoever for some people it really
does work for them but I think those are
for people that really don't suffer
dramatically and trauma wise with food I
think everybody in their own certain
ways that deals with food issues on all
different levels some are really really
bad really bad and then there's some
that are just minor and quick things
that they can fix and change so that
they can continue to lose the weight for
me it's just not that way it's not that
easy I have way too much in my past that
I'm still working on that I have to heal
before I could even think even twice
about something like that and in the end
I stopped and I think to myself
I am a person that likes to be able to
look at myself and say you did it Amy
you did it by yourself you did it and
and that's kind of how I look as like an
adult life I wasn't really taught much
about life skills I wasn't really taught
how to like pay bills and pay rent and
grocery shop and budget money and things
like that I mean I did those things
sometimes but it wasn't truly taught to
me to really figure out on my own
and since I have been on my own there is
one time in my entire life and it was
when my oldest son was being transferred
by ambulance to Portland Hospital
because his kidneys were failing and he
was his heart was his heart rate was way
low so he was very very very sick and
they had to rush him by ambulance from
sortin to Portland and I had asked my
grandma now she's passed but I had to
ask her if I could borrow $100 so I
could get gas in my car because I didn't
have money at the time and my grandma
was right there like she was like yeah
you know it's fine you can you know have
$100 and I remember a family member
coming out that was hoping to take care
of my grandma that was bringing the
money out because my grandma wasn't able
to walk because she was very old and so
I just pulled up and the family member
came out and as she was handing me the
money she said I want to tell you right
now you will never use my mother for
money and you will never ask my mother
for money without coming through me
first
and I'm gonna tell you now this is the
very last time you'll ever ask and at
that time I thought my god I've never
even ever asked for money I've never
been you know I mean I literally have
had I started from the bottom of the
bottom of the bottom rocks and have
pulled myself as far as I could and I
was
chuckling let me tell you I really was
but when I was told that I thought okay
you know what I'm never gonna ask
another dime from anybody I'll never
ever ever ask I will go hungry before I
ask somebody for money and so I took
that hundred because I was so desperate
like I had to have that money and I went
got gas and I got it to the hospital and
I just felt awful the whole time and the
next week came and I paid my grandma
back I took the hundred back and I said
thank you grandma so much for being
there and helping me in a time that I
personally needed it because this had to
do with my son I didn't want to be here
in Salem when my son is in Portland you
know fighting for his life I wanted to
be there but thank you grandma for being
there and I made sure to pay that back
and from that moment on I never ever
ever ever ever even thought twice about
asking for money or asking for help ever
ever have I asked for help because I
want to look back on life and say Amy
you've done all of this on your own you
did this nobody bought you this way
nobody paid your way nobody did any of
this you've done this all on your own
and that same kind of goes with my
weight loss I don't want a surgery
because I don't want to say well I lost
40 pounds but it's because I had gastric
bypass or whatever weight-loss surgery I
want to be able to say I lost 40 pounds
because I lost 40 pounds because I did
it for my own personal you know choice
and I did it because I'm changing and
it's not being forced upon me excuse me
and so I really in so many ways just
don't care for the surgery for myself
but for others I'm so happy that they're
able to get it because sometimes that's
what they need and so again I just want
to make sure that I let you guys know I
am NOT against anybody that has had this
surgery kudos to the ones that can you
know I've had multiple people around me
that have had the surgery some event
success and then others have gained all
the way back and some and then there's
some that have been in the hospital left
and right ever since surgery because
they don't
care of themselves so I've seen it on
all ends of the surgery the good the bad
and the ugly but in the end I just
choose not to but yeah so that's my
little rant for tonight but anyways I
really hope you guys enjoy today and I
hope you guys are having a wonderful day
today I can't wait until tomorrow I am
so nervous cuz tomorrow is my weigh-in
day I cannot believe I have made it this
far where I get to actually do a
weigh-in for you guys so stay tuned for
sure and let's see how much my progress
has made this week to where I can
finally say yay I have succeeded one
week down and many more to go
but anyways take care you guys I will
see you guys again tomorrow bye
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